Friday, March 25, 2011
Reconnecting with one of my most dearest friends last weekend seemed to heal a place in my heart, let some sunshine in, and brighten my path.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Arriving on our new path, we join others who share this new journey and we form new bonds, new faces of love, laughter, joy, sorrow, growing from each other.
Every once in a while we find someone who knows us better than we know ourselves, someone who has been with us through the hardest times in our lives, someone whose strength, beauty, and love seem to come from somewhere else. My beliefs are, just as a family is forever, so are these friends. That time, distance, trials, and bumps in the road will never sever the spiritual bond that exists. I am so blessed to have at least 2 in my life. My heart is full today for those women who love so unconditionally, and give me strength. The Lord blesses me in so many ways.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
I have seen pictures of myself, knew that I was gaining weight, but I was so involved with Grief that I just did NOT CARE! For years I have not cared what I looked like, not cared if I was healthy or not, NOT CARED whether or not if what I was doing would eventually shorten my life.
One day, the lights came on! A new set of eyes opened and I saw myself. REALLY saw what I had become. THIS is not the person I planned on becoming. THIS is not the place I planned on being. I was in a HOLE.
More importantly, I looked toward my Heavenly Father and felt sorrow. Where is the woman I was working toward? When I was a little girl, THIS is not who imagined, who I dreamed I would be. What have I done and how do I change it?
With support of a loving husband, I am attacking from every angle I know how. We are working together to find ourselves again. To find out what we are made of..
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
I learned this song as a child many years ago and has been a favorite. Now this message is what I hold on to daily. It has become a focus in my life. The Lord wants us to be happy in this life, as well as the next. This is why He has promised us eternal life with those we love the most, our families. It is not an automatic given, this Promise he made, there are certain requirements to this. We have to work for it. We have to live as He would have us live. Loving, sharing, caring, serving, living as our Savior did.
I have been in some dark places as of late and I know that light and darkness cannot reside in the same place. I have had many messages given to me stating I need to let the light in and turn toward the future, to the day when I will have all my boys with me again. That means I have a lot of work to do to get there. I have boys to raise, to make sure they will be with me as well, and an amazing husband to take me through it all.
Doctrine and Covenants 14:7 "And if you keep my commnadments and endure to the end you shall have eternal life, which gift is the greatest of all the gifts of God."