Thursday, March 17, 2011
I have seen pictures of myself, knew that I was gaining weight, but I was so involved with Grief that I just did NOT CARE! For years I have not cared what I looked like, not cared if I was healthy or not, NOT CARED whether or not if what I was doing would eventually shorten my life.
One day, the lights came on! A new set of eyes opened and I saw myself. REALLY saw what I had become. THIS is not the person I planned on becoming. THIS is not the place I planned on being. I was in a HOLE.
More importantly, I looked toward my Heavenly Father and felt sorrow. Where is the woman I was working toward? When I was a little girl, THIS is not who imagined, who I dreamed I would be. What have I done and how do I change it?
With support of a loving husband, I am attacking from every angle I know how. We are working together to find ourselves again. To find out what we are made of..