Monday, April 27, 2009

New Video.

As I said before, the video that I had made, Youtube didn't want me to use that music so I changed it up and used Creed, another band that Marcus loved. I also had to add more pictures plus I added a short video clip of my Marcus that I forgot I had.

My sweet Marcus. Oh how I miss you more today than yesterday!

Sunday, April 26, 2009

April 26, 2009 - 6 months

Can't believe it's April and now it has been exactly 6 months to the day that Marcus died. Not only was it the 26th today, but Sunday as well. He died on a early Sunday morning. It has been a rough day for us, harder on John than I thought.
We went to church today and in the announcements they mentioned Seminary Graduation, then mentioned the names of the 3 boys from our Ward who will be graduating. Like a stake through the heart to hear those names and not Marcus'. John and I stood at his grave today, looking at his headstone, wondering if this pain will every subside. In a few weeks we will be going through Graduation. We will be accepting an honorary diploma in his name at the ceremony. We will be going on the Trek (I will expound on that later) but it is a very emotional thing, then the day after we get home from that, it will be Marcus' 18th birthday. We will be out there again with flowers and balloons, maybe the airplane we want to put out there. I miss him so so much. I feel at peace with where he is and what he is doing, but it just hurts soooo much to have him gone.
I got out my box today of the things of Marcus' that are very important and I want to save forever, like his birth certificate, his obituary, his Patriarchal Blessing and other things. I had forgotten that there was a letter that he wrote while he was at his Priesthood in Action camp, and as I read it I realized that he had to have known what his fate was going to be. He thanked John and I for teaching him from the time he was born to know right from wrong, for raising him well. He said he loved us no matter what, even through fights and tough times. He said he would love us to the very end. What an amazing letter! I am so glad I have that to read now. He knew what life was going to give him. I am so blessed to have had him for my son.
Tomorrow is another day and I will begin to post the things that have been going on around here. I will start with a new hope and strive to chin up and face the world. I will "Gird up my Loins" once again.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Fight Childhood Brain Tumors

May is Brain Tumor Awareness month, so in honor of that, I made a little video. It's a tribute to My Dear Marcus, and his struggle with this horrible monster of Brain Cancer. The music was cut out of it from Youtube, so hopefully I can get that fixed. I just directly put it on this page. The music is a group that Marcus really liked called "Nickleback" and when I heard this song, I knew this is what I had to do with it. Wear GRAY IN MAY!!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Happy Easter!

Easter has a significant new meaning to me this year. There is only one person who knows exactly how I feel, and what pain I have to carry. He didn't have to take that upon himself, but He did it for me, so I wouldn't have to carry it alone. What a blessing my Savior Jesus Christ has done for me.

As we go into this beautiful Easter, I would like you to remember another Brain Tumor Warrior, named Adam Wisdom. (Beautiful name) He passed away today, on Saturday the 11th of April surrounded by his strong and faithful family. His family has such strong faith in God and has given me strength. Adam was 16 and was diagnosed in Oct. 8th, 2007. Please pray for this family and that the Lord will comfort them. I don't follow a lot of Brain tumor kids, but Adam's story hit so close to home and the look in his eyes was so similar to Marcus'.

Here is Adam's caringbridge site:

Hope everyone has a Peaceful and Beautiful Easter.

An Apostle's Easter Thoughts on Christ

Happy Easter. The only person in the Universe who truly knows how I feel, and didn't have to.

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

A fun thing to watch.

Shauna sent this to me and it just made me smile and want to get up and dance myself! Love you Shauna Bnauna!