Monday, January 30, 2012

As time goes by....


What A Grieving Mother Really Feels ....

Hello old friend,
Oh yes you know
I lost my child a while ago.
... No, no please Don’t look away
And change the subject
It’s okay
You see at first I couldn’t feel,
It took so long, but now it’s real.
I hurt so much inside you see
I need to talk,
Come sit with me?
You see,
I was numb for so very long,
And people said,
“My, she is so strong.”
They did not know I couldn’t feel,
My broken heart made it all unreal.
But then one day, as I awoke
I clutched my chest,
began to choke,
Such a scream,
such a wail,
Broke from me..
My child!
My child!
The horror of reality.
But everyone has moved on,
you see, everyone except for me.
Now, when I need friends most of all,
Between us there now stands a wall.
My pain is more than they can bear,
When I mention my child,
I see their blank stare.
“But I thought you were over it,
”Their eyes seem to say- -No, no,
I can’t listen to this, not today.
So I smile and pretend, and say,
“Oh, I’m okay”.
But inside I am crying,
as I turn away.
And so my old friend,
I shall paint on a smile,
As I have from the start,
You never knowing all the while,
All I’ve just said to you in my heart. ♥

5 comments:

Malie said...

I can only imagine the hurt you go through everyday. Im sorry you have to go through this. I hope one day soon you will be in a good place. Until then, we're here for you. Big hugs from Hawaii!

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Barbara said...

I love this poem as I lost my daughter in 1979 and the pain is never gone it just get different as time goes by as you will see.

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i cannot imagine the hurt a mother feels of losing a child. all i can do is probably pray to give her strength and to listen.