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Saturday, November 27, 2010
Thanksgiving Day, Part II
After posting my thoughts and deep feelings about this Thanksgiving, I took my family and went over to my dear friend, Julie's, for a scrumptious dinner with all the works. I got to visit with her family, that is almost like my own now. Moving downstairs, the video game "Just Dance" became the big hit of the day. What a blast!! The object was to move to the music the way the figure on the screen was doing, using the wii remote.
I had forgotten what it was like to get up and dance like that, I truly enjoyed doing what I could. Of course after only 2 LONG dances, ones that I ended up victorious against my boys and "the ladies" in the house, I collapsed. I am thinking this would be a great gift for Santa to bring our family. Not only did the boys enjoy it, I LOVED it. As my councilor advised me to do, I will try something new. Of course today I am FEELING it all over!! My knees are swollen and I ache all over... but we had a great time together as a family and that is something I know we need more of.
After my body had had enough of that, I went over to see my "Other Mother and Sister" Nila and Jenni Partington. As I got into my van and started out my driveway, it all hit. The tears, the pain and the sobs began. Before I knew it, I was at the cemetary, in the dark, the temperature about 5 degrees, in almost a foot of snow, on my hands and knees digging the snow off of his headstone. I found the batman figure and plane burried deep, when I did, I grabbed them and cleaned them off. Still sobbing, I pulled them into my chest. I continued to wipe the snow off of the flowers, off of his windchimes. The pain kept coming and so did the tears and the sobs. I think I was only there about 10 minutes before my sanity started to kick back in. Wiping the snow, the tears and smeared makeup off my face, I tried to decide where I was going to go. If I went home, I would be alone, (boys were still at Julie's) so I tried to put myself together and continued to drive over to Nila's. I knew if anyone, she and Jenni could cheer me up.
The one thing they can do is laugh. Just after a few minutes all 3 of us were laughing and giggling. I am so blessed to have so many friends and family close by. They give me strength, love and courage to get up and go on with life. To enjoy the moments I have now.