Thursday, January 14, 2010

Crazy Ideas!

I really wasn't going to post about this, but not sure what else to do with it. I guess I could just throw it in the wind and see how much of it blows back in my face!
I have had these crazy ideas, well more like STRONG desires or yearnings to try something I have NEVER really done in my life, nor has it EVER been a thought in my brain... EVER! So for those of you who have known me forever, know this is true. I can't explain it, I don't know where it came from, but I am compelled to WRITE! Not just blogging, not just journaling, a whole flippin' NOVEL!! ??????? I am at a loss. Yesterday I wrote for hours (almost 20 pages) by hand in a journal. I have almost 60 pages written by hand. Now, those of you who know me, know my knowledge of Grammar, Literature, really and truly SUCK!! I really don't want to say what I am writing about because I think it's sorta lame. I imagine it would be something for teens or younger because that's what I know.
I guess I am just throwing this out there and see what people think. Is this something that everyone goes through? Am I so desperate to focus on a fantasy world that I am creating my own? Any psychiatrists reading my blog? Maybe you can expand on these weird feelings! Sometimes I am writing so long, I can't put my pen down!! Where is all this coming from? I honestly do not like grammar, english per say. I never thought my writting was that great, of course I only went to 1 year of college and didn't take one english class. So.... anybody out there willing to share their opinion, ideas, or thoughts about this? Please tell me... what am I supposed to do with this??

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Karen, I am no psychologist, but a retired teacher with some psychology and writing classes under my belt. The one thing I do know, writing is therapeutic and where you are in your cycle of grieving, it is good for you to do. Everyone should keep a journal. I have written and completed many a journal with thoughts during different periods in my life. So go for it girl, give it a try, and enjoy it. You never know where it will take you. It's a good place to be. Enjoy. Writing and reading were my favorite parts to teach to my little ones in class. Sandy in MD

Anonymous said...

Karen,
I think all of us who have gone through an experience like this have to find a way to get the emotion out. Some people deal with this in a destructive way because they drink the pain away. Others find constructive ways to deal...I went back to school to become an RN. You have been doing things to raise cancer awareness and find ways to make Marcus' death meaningful. I think writing is a very positive thing...although yes, knowing you, I am somewhat surprised this is the avenue you have chosen at this point ;) Some days will continue to be better than other...this semester I am doing my OB clinicals. I don't know how I will hold up if there is a fetal demise, but I do know my experience will help me to help others in similar circumstances. The saying "That which doesn't kill us makes us stronger" is very true. Go with what you feel is right and things will work out and you will feel peace. It may well be that 7 years from now, when you are a famous author, you will be able to look back at the past couple of years and know the reason why it had to be so, and be able to see how you have been blessed in spite of (and maybe even because of) the pain and loss. (((((HUGS)))) Katherine

Jeff's Wife! said...

Go for it! Keep writing. I am an awesome editor and will be glad to help you revise one day.

Stacie said...

I think that is pretty awesome and theraputic. I have thought this often too.Sometimes it is just nice to live in that imaginary world huh? keep at it!

Tammy Nischan said...

Karen,

I never realized that you had a blog address until tonight in an email to another grieving mom.

I just wanted to say "hi" from one kindred-spirited mom to another.

Much love,
tammy nischan

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